In Love With The One You Hate

Living in love with one you hate causes me to know this excruciating pain, a resilient hurt that shades any hope of light, blinding my sight and though I try with all my might to ignore...even try to pretend that I can escape, I find there's no rescue from this torture that torments my heart

 When I hear your name or you voice calling out to me...a sound I used to welcome...a sound for which I thirsted...a constant prayer to lie next to you, in your arms, now the answer to my prayer has left a permanent scar on my heart that powder won't cover though a failed attempt to mask with a smile helps me breathe another breath, helps my fragile heart beat another beat, still underneath all the glitter lies a broken-hearted, lonely boy, desperately seeking to believe that Love is not just a creative spark from a romantic's imagination

 Living in love with the one you hate is not living at all!

 By Andrew J. Dorsey
April 19, 2009 - 7:25 PM

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