Stop

Have you ever been so lonely that the word alone itself does not weigh enough to carry the meaning or explain the feeling of seeking comfort in sad songs and slow melodies that play on repeat in my mind and I find no release in the solid belief of one divine who with one thought could change the direction of circular motions that never seem to ever settle in one time or on one place back and forth from one end of this space to another and I just want to stop. I just want to stop. The world keeps spinning and I just want to stop. The river keeps flowing and I just want to stop. The wind keeps blowing and I just want to stop. The fire keeps burning and I just want to stop.

By Andrew J. Dorsey
December 26, 2009 - 11:58 p.m.

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