In Loving Memory of YOU

Why do I let it upset me so? So angry that my thoughts...random and unpredictable, like a feather in the mind - never settling on any idea. No definitely not peace, not forgiveness, not LOVE. Just a pure, unrated DISGUST!

Yes..YOU, who allow them to treat you that way. YOU who are more than you ever imagined, possessing potential beyond comprehension...BEAUTIFUL and KIND...and you allow these blessings to be oppressed by violent eruptions from a coward's hand or empty utterances from a bully's lies! Is this all you want for yourself?

Being mad at you has made me mad at me...for sitting back and watching your rapid decline into a pit of despair, dug by the hands and words of them that don't even know the real YOU.

Yeah, they know the you whose face is still swollen from their last expression of their love or whose arms is still broken from the last time you disturbed his pride...or whose heart is still broken from the last time they came home with someone else on their mind, in their heart, on their clothes.

Yet you who are a PRINCESS...and QUEEN - GORGEOUS and TALENTED, LOVED, AND NEEDED - lie still, stuck in place, while they drain you of your desire to LIVE!

Yet you stay and tell your child, it's okay, he broke my arm because he loves me. It's okay, he cheats on me, but he loves me. You tell that little girl...stay with your man, the headaches will soon go away. NO IT'S NOT OKAY!

I dare you to experience real love! I challenge you to get to know yourself!

Because once you get to know the YOU I know, there's no limit to where you can go...what you can be. Dreams and blessings, yet you ignore the YOU I know...just to be their victim. That's right! You're not his wife, you're his victim! You are your victim...slowly committing suicide - a slow death - their "love" is the weapon.

Last night, the tear I cried dried on my face - I keep it there, in loving memory of YOU.

By: Andrew J. Dorsey
April 2, 2009 - 6:21 PM CT

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